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last night= simply aaamazing.
it was too long since i had that much fun.
saw meet the fockers, funfun.
you=awesome. i couldn't stop smiliing.
thanks for a great time :)
afterwards the night only got better !!
got dropped off at lunas & sleptover.
DANCE PARTY w/ luna, sarah & laura!
those 3 girls are tooo cool for words.
the night was crazzzy lol.
it was good to see everyone happy for once :)
remember luna.. this is what matt would want.
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i've been meaning to post this...
words can't express the way i feel right now.
i wish more than anything we could bring him back.
Matthew Aaron Mesa
R.I.P.
July 31, 1988 - December 17, 2004.
last friday was a tough night. it was an eye opener for us all. things like this happen when you least expect it and from who you least expect it form.
I didn't know him as just Matt Mesa.. I knew him as Matt & Luna. They made an amazing couple. They were the ones you watched in the halls and thought to yourself,"aww, I wish I had that! They're so cute." I just can't believe it's over. It's all over. Together they were awesome. Seperately they were awesome. They were two beautiful people who could define the phrase "falling in love". Why is one half of that missing? You were meant to live for so much more. I'm so sorry this had to happen..
Matt-
I know we weren't too close but we were begining to grow closer, you were an awesome kid who always knew how to make someone laugh. Everyday when i saw you between classes and after school you would always say something silly or make a sarcastic remark that brought a smile to my face. I thank you so much for teaching my best friend what it is to love and for giving her an amazing 5 months that she'll never forget, you guys were awesome together.. I just can't believe it's over, all of it. I wish you chose a different way out.. life has so much more to offer you. We all did care & still do. You were a great person and no one had anything bad to say about you. I hope you're in a better place now and are watching over all of us as we continue our lives. I don't care what anyone says, I know in my heart this was a mistake. It wasn't meant to happen & it's so unfair that it did. I love you Matt.. R.I.P. <33
I know this isn't easy for any of us.. but it's times like these when friends need to stick togehter the most.
My heart goes out to Luna.
- wow, you're such a beautiful person both inside and out & i'm so glad I can call you my best friend. I love you with all of my heart and then some. You're an amazing friend & have never left my side. You're always there when I need you most and I hope you know i'm here for you every step of the way. It's hard to lose someone, especially someone you care so much about. You're amazing for staying so strong through all of this & I look up to you a great amount. I don't think I could ask for a better friend. You always know what to say to cheer me up, how to give me advice, you know when to talk or just listen, you never judge me & I know I can count on you to be there for me in any situation. I love you like a sister and it hurts to see you hurting. It breaks my heart to see you cry, but know you're still beautiful, even when you makeup is smudge :) I know it's easier said then done but the best thing you can do now is think of all the good times spent together, you're already doing an amazing job with that though. It's so nice to see your beautiful smile occasionally still glow when you do think of all the good times. Just rememeber YOU taught him how to love and YOU made his last 5-6 months the best ones ever & that alone should make you smile. Luna.. you're a beautiful and amazing person, please never forget that. You have a lot going for you in life & this is one of the many obstacles you'll have to face throughout life. Although this is probably one of the toughest, you will make it through. It's not something you'll get over, but with time you'll heal. Also remember that Matt wouldn't want you to be sad.. he would want you to enjoy life and reminice on the good times :) you= so amazing! i'm so glad we friends.
to all the other assholes out there:
it's pretty sad that in a time like this when someones life was lost and people who were close to the individual are suffering.. all some people can do is start drama!? what is wrong with this world? that's sad. so to any little focker out there that wants to blame this on luna or tell matt how stupid he is.. don't be shy about. but you'll probably be very sorry after. none of this is Lunas fault. NONE OF IT. Luna gave Matt the best 5 months of his life.. she taught him what it is to love and shared a special relationship with him. Unfortunately, Matt suffered from depression.. a chemical inbalance in the brain.. nothing that could be helped. Some people are just born that way. Luna helped Matt out in so many ways. he loved her more than anything!! he loved her so much that even if he couldn't be with her he wouldn't put an end to his life and leave her in the pain she's in now. i know matt, he wouldn't do that. it was a mistake. it wasn't her fault. she knew him 6 months out of the 16 years he was alive. some people fail to look at every aspect of a situation. some people want something to blame it on so bad that they would put the blame of someones life on another. that's not fair. infact that's a bit heartless, blaming the loss of someones life on another? who does that. i regret to say this but no one is to blame but matt. isn't he the one that did it? we all did as much as we could. sometimes a situation is just unfixable. so before another stupid ahole decides to make a dumbass remark, think before u speak! people do have feelings. jerks. AND, anyone with stupid comments like "stupid move" can shove it as well. some people may not know the whole story. but, if you know matt well enough and know the whole situation you would realize this was a freak accident. in my heart i believe it was an accident that went to far and unfortunately the result had to be something as unfortunate death. so, if you have an opinion keep it to yourself. you may not know the whole story and you may not realize WORDS HURT. some people need to be careful what they say and who they say it to.
Everything happens for a reason, but what reasons could there possibly be for this?? He was so young. Such a good kid. So funny.
But, I guess we all can learn a lesson from this.
- Live everyday like it's your last. Love & enjoy every moment you can.
- When you feel like you need to tell someone something, TELL THEM. you never know when it'll be too late.
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Well, i think this is long enough.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE ! :)
& goodnight. <33 dallas.
...Matt you'll always have a special place in my heart...
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